by i went to bed early, around 4am, with tears. i can't recall what time i finally close my eyes. all i can recall is that it was the worst night i have been through. the long conversation resulted in nothing but tears.
i knew that there is absolutely nothing i can do to bring him back to me.
and i knew that from now on he is not someone i can call everytime i need someone to talk to. he is no longer a shoulder for me to cry on every time things get me upset. he is no longer someone i can rely on, someone i can tell everything to. he is never going to be someone i will live with for the rest of my life, never.
the promise that we made is never going to be fulfilled.
i forced myself to say "who cares??" first thing when i got up from bed.
i felt so weak, and suddenly tears came down quickly from my eyes.
sadness and loneliness overwhelmed me. i never felt so blue like this before. and knowing that he is not there for me at the saddest moment of my life... i felt like the world is closing down on me.
i hate to pretend that i am ok. i am tired. i don't know why but somehow i feel like this f***ing world is punishing me over something i didn't do.
no matter how hard i try to figure it out, i can never understand how could this ever happen to me. tired, already.
i really need a rest. a good rest.
i am going to sleep now.
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i knew that there is absolutely nothing i can do to bring him back to me.
and i knew that from now on he is not someone i can call everytime i need someone to talk to. he is no longer a shoulder for me to cry on every time things get me upset. he is no longer someone i can rely on, someone i can tell everything to. he is never going to be someone i will live with for the rest of my life, never.
the promise that we made is never going to be fulfilled.
i forced myself to say "who cares??" first thing when i got up from bed.
i felt so weak, and suddenly tears came down quickly from my eyes.
sadness and loneliness overwhelmed me. i never felt so blue like this before. and knowing that he is not there for me at the saddest moment of my life... i felt like the world is closing down on me.
i hate to pretend that i am ok. i am tired. i don't know why but somehow i feel like this f***ing world is punishing me over something i didn't do.
no matter how hard i try to figure it out, i can never understand how could this ever happen to me. tired, already.
i really need a rest. a good rest.
i am going to sleep now.
------------||||cinta.3.segi.
