by lama x menulis di sini. rindu.
today is the first day of my finals. my first paper which is CTU 553 (Ethnic Relations) would take place at 2pm later today. and ironically this girl is not studying but browsing this site writing diary! hurmm.. it's not that i am so well prepared that i don't have to study at all. actually i am not quite ready yet. i wish that my finals can be postponed until next year so that i can get really prepared. but apparently i have to go for my paper this evening. there will be no fucking postponing. i have been given a long enough time to be prepared for this.
i am tired of reading my books already. and maybe my books are sick of staring back at me already. i feel like puking at my books. maybe those books are feeling the same way at me too. we are hating each other i guess. hahaha.
geez. actually i dont know what i want to write. i am so stressed i feel like doing push ups or screaming at the walls until my throat hurts. or going to the road and do marathon on my own. i feel like i am going crazy anytime. i am so running out of time for revising but i cant give up. so many fucking personal problems affected my studies recently it almost give up hopes. i risked my future for something i was not sure of. i sacrificed almost my everything for something useless. for the empty promises. wtf. i was so stupid i feel like slapping my face hundred times.
so to hell with all the promises and hopes promised. fuck all of them they were empty and useless. i am totally a different person nothing can stop me now from creating my future. thanks for them, precious ones for zapping me back to reality.
well i have to get some sleep or otherwise i am gonna be sleeping halfway through my paper this evening. shah alam is so hot these days it can conveniently get me to sleep.
till then, take care. wish me luck for my exams.
p/s. do mind my french.
today is the first day of my finals. my first paper which is CTU 553 (Ethnic Relations) would take place at 2pm later today. and ironically this girl is not studying but browsing this site writing diary! hurmm.. it's not that i am so well prepared that i don't have to study at all. actually i am not quite ready yet. i wish that my finals can be postponed until next year so that i can get really prepared. but apparently i have to go for my paper this evening. there will be no fucking postponing. i have been given a long enough time to be prepared for this.
i am tired of reading my books already. and maybe my books are sick of staring back at me already. i feel like puking at my books. maybe those books are feeling the same way at me too. we are hating each other i guess. hahaha.
geez. actually i dont know what i want to write. i am so stressed i feel like doing push ups or screaming at the walls until my throat hurts. or going to the road and do marathon on my own. i feel like i am going crazy anytime. i am so running out of time for revising but i cant give up. so many fucking personal problems affected my studies recently it almost give up hopes. i risked my future for something i was not sure of. i sacrificed almost my everything for something useless. for the empty promises. wtf. i was so stupid i feel like slapping my face hundred times.
so to hell with all the promises and hopes promised. fuck all of them they were empty and useless. i am totally a different person nothing can stop me now from creating my future. thanks for them, precious ones for zapping me back to reality.
well i have to get some sleep or otherwise i am gonna be sleeping halfway through my paper this evening. shah alam is so hot these days it can conveniently get me to sleep.
till then, take care. wish me luck for my exams.
p/s. do mind my french.
